Happy Birthday Dad

Yesterday! I'm a day late. I've never been a day late. No wonder mom kept talking about you when we were out with her yesterday. I wonder why she never mentioned that it was your birthday. I wonder if she even knew, maybe she just remembered you out of the blue.

I miss you Dad. I don't miss you as much but I do think of you every time I cry. I wonder if you see me crying. I wonder how you feel, if ever you do feel anything. I wonder if you're happy with how my life turned out. I wonder how you think of my sacrifices in life. Are you proud of me? of how I've become? I'm no longer your spoiled little princess. I've learned so much in all the hells I've been through and I've accepted the fact that I am nobody's princess anymore. I miss being someone's princess but that ended when you left and the hopes of feeling it again vanished into thin air when you died. I remember you whenever I see a little girl and her dad, I close my eyes for a minute and I become your little girl again. It makes me happy even for just a little while.

Thanks for the memories Dad. For all the good times you have instilled in my heart and memory that even if you were never perfect, in my eyes, you were.

I love you Dad, wherever you are. I promise I will make you proud.

I will make our dreams come true.

Happy Birthday.